♥ just because someone flirts with you,

doesn't mean that they likes you.

just because someone likes you,

doesn't mean that they want to go out with you.

just because someone goes out with you,

doesn't mean that they love you.

just because someone love you,

doesn't mean that they won't hurt you.

because people lie&things change,boyfriend cheat, bestfriend leave.

♥ we've become strangers;but we're strangers with a past.
♥ she guards the gate but lost the key.

so no one enters and no one leaves.

♥ she's standing on the line between giving up & seeing how much more she can take.

♥ i'm not going to get upset & i'm not going to care

because everytime i did, it never got me anywhere.

♥ find a heart that will love you at your worst,

and arms that will hold you at your weakest.

♥ i've been fighting the urge to text himand tell him that i miss him.

♥ i like dead end signs.

i think they're considerate.

at least they have the decency to tell you when you're going no where.

♥ why wear my heart on your sleevewhen it looks so good in your hands?

♥ i just want to be happy

is that so much to ask for?

♥ i wonder who came up this word - forever.

♥ she randomly smiles because shes thinking of you.

Bad Experience

Been a week since i update my blog.Nothing much to post up lately as no gathering, no dates or anything special to share. I was busy with doc appointment & dentist appointment for the past few days. Spend SGD300plus for my healthcare man..I was damn broke you as my pay day only receive on the 7th of every month. But i got my nose fixed and will go for the second check up in 2 weeks time to check again.The specialist applied the medicine inside my nose. The part which is quite deep swollen red and crack on the surface of the skin. I feel uncomfortable when the specialist place the cord i think it is supposed to call..hehe! in my nose to do the checking and applying process.

As for Good Friday, i spent my day at home practically doing nothing.haha!Totally no idea wat to do because everyone is working and schooling and no companies at home. But mum cooked nice home dishes for us to eat. I miss homecook. I miss my mum cooking.Then spend the whole afternoon sleeping and watching tv. The weather was cosy as it rains heavily non stop. But because of this stupid rain, i almost missed my flight to penang. Worst experience in my life. Guess wat?i reached Senai aiport at 8.55pm and my flight is 9.00pm. I was worried death and keep blaming myself for not calling for cab earlier and wait for my sis to send me off.

Anyway back to the story. I was like oh gosh..8.55pm and luckily i already web check in through Airasia website 24 hrs earlier and printed out my boarding pass. But the problem is that the gate close 30 mins before the departure time. It's printed on the boarding pass statement. I dun know whether i can make it or not. But at the point of time, my mind go blank and without realising, my leg starts to run and run like a crazy gal searching for the check in to departure hall.At last i saw the signboard 'Departure Hall' arrow showing to my right and in a slip second, i was like quick i gonna be quick. The policeman was there checking my boarding pass. and he said 'Ah moi, kenapa lambat?tak tahu flight sudah jalan ke belum. U boleh cuba'. Then i quickly ran up to search for the gate departure to Penang sign. I can't find and i saw the screen showing the gate is CLOSED!!I was like..y like this?Pls dun do this to me...Then i saw a counter and there was like 2 mans walking towards the counter to show their boarding pass and without hesitating i jz walked over and try my luck to see whether the flight is to penang. And really it is.Thank GoD!And finally i'm the last one to board the flight. I was out of breathe and finally i can take a deep breathe once i found my seat in the cabin.

The moral of the story is that never ever take things for granted expecting everything will goes smoothly as per planned. So, i really gonna be alert and thank god i did not miss the flight and of course did not waste the flight money of RM300++ as well.

I think i do hv fate with the figure 3 in front of the amount. Cost me a bomb for the expenses spent recently.Especially on doctor specialist and dentist *Sigh* But i really wish to go for holiday but it will cost all my saving.Shld i go or shld i not?Argh..

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P/S: Finally got Zihui wedding card and also her wedding photos. I'm her representative to send out her wedding to some of the sec frens working in sg. SSC said i can practice learning how to give out red booms to frens so in future when my turn finally come i dy have the experience. Wat a joke.. =)

Piercing Heart

Feelings

Morning Session:-My mood today is juz like the weather today. It seems like the the sky is crying (raining) non-stop. The atmosphere is so cold like my heart. It has been piercing pain the whole day. Difficult breathing as well. Don't understand why i keep having this kind of feeling. Hope the day will pass quickly and end soon~

Hope i can find ways to solve the problems & get on my life soon..I dun know how and i really want it to be solve soon~~

Afternoon Period:- I have to learn be understanding, accept the reality. I know i hv to keep trying & trying~~ I don't know whether is this right or not. Anyway, pray hard everything goes well in the end Depressing is keep haunting me. I dun know y. so wish to drive it away but it juz couldn't leave me.

I hope what i wish can come true and no more bad memories again~HATE the feelings~~

"BE POSITIVE, Life is Full of hope* Dun expect then you will not disappointed with it".

I always tell myself but i still can't get through it. How???

Evening Period:- My feeling SUCKS totally after knowing the ans. I hate the word 'PROMISE'. I hate it so much. Everything was so wonderful & really like fairy tales but reality do come in to break everything. I'm loss~ I'm a failure in this. Can somebody teach me how should i handle this?

What will you do if you had promise someone to do a particular things but end up you break it= break the person heart? The person was so delighted to hear it at first but now..everything is dashed in a split seconds. Why bad things always happen?? I can't think rational anymore...

Don't wish to go home so early...i have nowhere to go :' ( .............scare to back to the house & being left alone with the tv and the 4 walls. THe loneliness is back again as the nite falls~HATE THIS FEELING~

Wish it will be better tomorrow~~

Bad Nit3

It was a bad nite for me yesterday. I went to bed around 9plus last nite. And suddenly my stomach suddenly feel so pain. I thought the pain would go away but it seems like getting worse. The pain has finally woke me up and i rush to the toilet.

I think i'm stuck in the toilet for more than 15mins. My hands keep pressing on my stomach and the feeling of pain reminds me the experience i had during my diploma studies in KL. It's like something in your stomach and is piercing pain. The feeling is back again~~ Then i began to feel out of breathe. Seems like it hot & i'm perspiring all over.I couldn't take it anymore so i'm out of the toilet and the moment i stood up, i feel dizzy and couldn't stand still..

Guess what?i slipped and sat on the floor just in front of my toilet door. Totally no energy at all to stand or talk. I feel so weak and can't talk at all at that very moment. However, i try to walk towards the living room. One of my housemate is there. he quickly went down to 7-eleven to buy panadol and stomach pain medicine for me. Thank godness he's there...

I took the medicine & was feeling much better. But the pain is still with me continuosly. It was around 11plus at nite and i should be sleeping soundly in the bed..haih..i guess it's food poisioning..

Leaving no choice that i still have to work tomorrow, i forced myself to bed. It was then i finally get thru my painful nite with the morning wake up going to gym again. My routine life is back but still got a sharp pain. I still need to bear with it~~Thanks for comforting me when i'm in such great pain~