Birthday Thoughts

19th is a day that a 80's baby girl is born. She has grown from a baby girl to a lady. She has learnt that age and time does not wait for people. Time flies without realizing. It's a recap platform to pen down the changes ever since then. 

It has been a year since i back to Spore to work and this time round i see a different me. I became a workaholic due to my job scope. I learnt to not to think nonsense due to work stress everyday and not even have time to think as well. Working has been stressful and overload but then came along an unexpected path. I started to join bloggers' events and start to receive emails for invitation. I made new friends through the event and it also allows me to expand my social network as well. Friends from different groups, jobs and country over the event made me feel that the world isn't what i thought it should be. There is more to see, to know and to explore.

I see myself thinking different ways and perspective now. As we grow, our minds and thoughts are different. But i am glad to have friends who shared the same thoughts, grow together with me and share knowledge along the way. Families that grow old together and our bonding grows stronger as the days goes by. What matters the most is the thoughts that counts, the sincere hearts that touched the heart of individual mates.

Life has always been ups and downs. It is like riding a roller coaster. Full of excitements and challenges ahead. You dare yourself to brave the ride but sometimes you are afraid to take the ride. Perhaps taking the ride up does change the future path which we don't even know how will it goes. But what is important now is to get it moving. The courage to move on does not happen immediately. It's built through the obstacles and challenges throughout the journey. Some take it easily and some take it seriously. It's on how does individual deals with it.

Not everyone shares the same sentiments thoughts. I am lucky to have them in my life. Differrent stage of life comes different path, thoughts and people. Some are hi bye, some lost touch but some do stays. Although we are far apart, we share the same thoughts. I am glad to have you guys. I may be lonely but i tell myself i can input myself with positive mindsets and be proud of myself. Maybe you can achieve a certain thing and have something you wanted very easily but not for me. I need to fight for it, earn for it and make it happen. Maybe the time taken is more than anyone else, path taken is tougher than others, efforts paid off is more but that's the life it is. I maynot be fortunate and shared the easy life like others who are at my same level now. I felt sad and upset but i know i am different from others. I know i need to take longer time to achieve what i need to achieve. I need more efforts to input into the things that i want. Maybe the time isn't ripe yet. Maybe God wants it to be this way. Sometimes i feel lost and sense the negative stuffs, i cried, i think and i embrace it. I do grumble and compare too. I do ask myself lots of why, I keep things to myself and doesn't blur them out to anyone. I guess its a way of myself being protective to myself. But i do know that it's human nature for being so protective to own self from getting hurt and listen to things that I do not want to listen and fear to hear. Cruel reality with the advance technologies now enable us to get the attention we want but not realizing that it's all about wanting to get recognition from other people on what you yourself have done and proud of.

It's always important to overcome the fear within my soul and thoughts. Everything sounds so common sense when you and I are rational. But human are forever humans. Humans have feelings and my feelings always overcome my rational. I need to learn to be rational towards my feelings and action. This is how we are learning to improve ourself to be a better one that we are proud of. That's what i been telling myself.

Happy Birthday to me!

Sudden Thoughts

 It has been a while since I last pen down my thoughts in my space.

 Life has been truly hectic and basically i have no time to communicate with outside people. I am referring to my family and friends. Basically i only communicate with my work and colleagues on weekdays. 

When the night falls and time to sleep, i will miss my bed.

Seriously i need an overhaul. I need time to slow down so that i can reflect changes over an year. Time has been moving very fast and honestly i don't even have time to judge my thoughts. Sometimes I will be carried away on my workloads and my mind is all about working and working. 

Little steps that i take is to work towards the lifestyle i wish to have in future. I don't know whether the steps that i take will lead me to a better one. But I do not want to have any regrets in future. Working has been extremely stressful and things doesn't seems to go well as I expected and plan. Life truly unexpected and unpredictable so just live the life that we wish for now and future. People always want to have what they wish to but they can't make the step out to do what they want. So in the end it can't be attained. I just want to make my life better than the past. It's about the attitude and mentality for me now.

One of the way to de-stress is to eat. I started to grow my love on foods and it has always been a favourite hobby all along. Thanks to my dad as well as he is a food lover as well. I always reward myself for good food to balance my stress in work.  Thank god i have a group of friends who are food lover as well. Sometimes life isn't about having the best for everything, it's all about appreciation and importance value of family and friends that appear in your life. 

Perhaps when you reaches certain age or time, your mentality and mindsets do provides another new platform for a new phrase of life. I am not sure about you but I felt so lately. It's no longer like seeking more on tangible stuffs but more of the intangible assets that money cannot buy. Happiness is one of them and when you are young, less burden, less expectation and responsibilities or less complicated thoughts, you are easily be contented. As for now, more burden, more responsibilities and complicated thoughts built over the years. The expectation grown together with the reality of society.  Blame the society for being so realistic but that's how the reality of life.

Nevertheless happiness is to search and find by yourself. 

I want to be the seeker for my happiness. 

The Rush on Friday

Going back on every friday after work is a routine thing to me and most of the Johorian people who worked in Singapore. It was truly a hectic and tiring life to be honest. 
You need to compete with the time and chase the busses. Everyone is rushing to catch the bus to back home. Home sweet home! 


Everyone is taking fast steps to be in line and get into the bus in their fastest speed. Some even pretend to be in line and jump queue. Seriously there are people that are inconsiderate as well. Everyone wants to go home but some people are just too impatient to wait for their turn. Sigh! That's how the reality it is.

The waiting moment is always tedious especially when you travelling alone. However, when you finally arrive home, the tiredness just wear off as you feel the warmth home feeling. 

It makes me feel that life ain't easy as time passes, you will feel the pressure and the responsibilities getting larger. The burden to carry along and make sure everything goes smoothly. Time seems not enough all the time.  Everyone can only see the beautiful side of the story and never even wanna show others the ugly side of it. It's so true as you see facebook is always fill with happiness and blissful photos. The route to future isn't that easy especially when you are travelling alone in the journey. Nevertheless it can be sweet too depending on how you want to put your perspective in. 


As for me, i admit that i am being emotional sometimes but sometimes i do tell myself to be positive. Bad times will over soon and good times are on its way. No one says it's easy but it's not that difficult as long as persistence strive through your vein and mentality and push you going making you even stronger to stand on your own foot.


I do grumbled as the routine is making me exhausted and when i reached home all i want to do is to lie on my cosy bed and sleep. But seeing how my parents and grandma wished us to go back every weekend, it makes me feel bit guilty as well. Everyone is expecting you to go back on weekend and the smile on their faces are priceless.


Mm...but I need to work on weekdays and no time for myself and when weekend arrives, I will need to rush back JB to spend time with family. It's a routine cycle every week unless there are stuffs. I wish I have 72 hours a day so that i can do my things as well. Sigh!!


Monday is coming again!

Life

Taken at Little India

Life ain't easy

Everyone struggle for better life so don't give up :)

Be brave to the World

You may not always end up where you thought you were going.

But you will always end up where you were meant to be.

-Jessica Taylor-

"MY GENERASI"- Childhood memories

Came across this video from fb. Most of my 80's frens are sharing this video. It really brought back lotsa memories of our primary and secondary school period.

Good Job!

The games that we played, the things we owned and the fond memories.

Awesome feeling while watching the video.

I miss wearing pinafore and baju kurung during my high schools. It's not bored after all because i need to think what to wear everyday now.haha!

Batu seremban was one of the D.I.Y game i made before as well. I will use the scattered cloth stuffed with red & green bean sew it up in triangle form. Pepsi cola 123 also one of the coolest game we had during our high school time.

At that point of time, I also remembered the guys will buy a set collection of rubber with country flags to play. It is exactly same as shown in the video.

I need to check whether my diary book is still at home or being throw away. I still remember we will have our empty book to be filled by our classmates during the last day of the school of the year. We paste stickers to beautify our wall post in the book which currently everyone is using it as FB. haha! It is really alike to link them both together...

You realize you are adult/old when ...

--- you smell freedom and dangers in life...

--- u have to manage your financial independently

--- you realize the power of money can do

--- u have to pay taxes yearly and make sure you do your own e-filling

--- u have to clear bills monthly

--- red bombs keep coming in

--- u feel that time is so limited per day and wish for 48 hours a day

--- u snooze every morning just to get to sleep even for a few minutes.

I admit i always snooze all the time..

--- just want to go straight home after work everyday cos missing the cosy bed

--- it is finally TGIF and no need to set the alarm for the following days

--- you listen to radio and 80% you are not aware of the singer name

--- commitment is needed to your family and loved ones

--- worried about health care and aware of the importance of staying healthy

--- start planning for your fu

I was blog hopping and show the blog title of this from a blog that made me want to list down as well. It is so true that it made me realize that things just happened so fast and time flies.

It's all part parcel of life and we learned through hard way most of the times to realize the meaning of happiness. Happiness can be so simple but yet hard to define. Everyone has their own way to find their happiness. We find happiness in unexpected places, we find our way back to the things that matters the most.

Sometimes it just such funny that things will just wind up the way it is exactly where it started. It's just like the globe or curve ball where it goes around and comes back to the starting point.

What comes around goes around :)

So how do you realize you are adult then?

Love

" There is a kind of love that gives you the courage to be better than yourself. One that makes you feel that anything is possible."

When do yourself really feels that anything is possible? I do feel it when i am surrounded with love. Love from family members, kins, loved ones and friends. The love given was not artificial, or even give for the sake of being fake ones. Love can be beautiful and it can be a cruel one if you get yourself hurt.

I miss being the feeling of loved and wish to be loved. I admit that i don't like the feeling being lonely but sometimes i wish to be alone too. Sound contradicting? I do think so..haha! Nevertheless i will make my life as colourful as possible. At least being a workaholic on weekdays do served the purpose of making the life fullest.

Family bonding is very important. After both grandma been hospitalizing for the past one month, grandpa 1 year anniversary, family issues with all troubles brewing, family bonding gets closer then. It is something good and bad as in good that family members get to understand one another even better and bad because troubles brewing within the family. I love my family despite sisters have conflict and arguments along the journey.

Friendship valuable especially when age gets older. Friends are getting lesser and the gap is getting bigger as time goes by. I am thankful that i have several good friends ever since secondary schools til now. Although we seldom contact but we shared the common thoughts of life that we believed in.

Love comes in many ways and how we perceived it. It depends on how we handle it and take it. Love is fragile but it bring out the life of an individual. I love my family, friends and people that are important to me...

Prioritize

Extremely busy with work ever since i started working on my new job. I used to on the dock knock off time person from my previous jobs. But my current job requires to work late almost everyday due to project basis or even tender. It is totally new job nature for me and everything is new to me. I think i can be connected as a working machine. I don't even have time to go toilet or a drink. Time flies very fast when i work here.

I guess i am chasing time for time now instead of time chasing me. I know i sound exaggerate but truly to me i think is absolutely true. I seriously need to think how to balance my current working life. Life is hectic and i need to learn how to balance it. Saying always easier which i always use it as a phrase. Applying the truth fact ain't easy at all. Mindset is superb hard to subdue.lolz.

Sometimes in life we need to learn how to prioritize and weigh whichever important.What is your prioritize for now? In terms of long term and short term. What you really want and what i really want? Prioritize needed in certain circumstances and perhaps all the time especially when u face problems. Even in work, you need to prioritize which comes first and which is important. How things work and how it turn out may not be the one we wish it will happen.

I have many things in mind. List of things to do and also how am i going to achieve them? I admit i am a greedy person who wants everything i wish to have in my list but i know it is impossible. Sumtimes it is not whether you want to do it or not but is how you gonna do it. I always have doubt in myself and questions keep popping out in my mind with all the 'IF' and 'HOW' and 'WHY'. If things remain like this, it will be great as things move on. But reality isn't that way.

Sumtimes people will get lost not knowing the path taken wasn't the initially they prioritize or set earlier. It's like you enter into a beautiful cottage and get distracted with the fancy decorations and you get lost with the initial purpose of getting in. It's like you initial want to have chocolate ice-cream when you enter to the ice-cream shop but you are tempted with the mango sorbet and end up having that instead of your initial craving of chocolate. It's like full of temptations along the way and how you going to resist it or get it over.

Gonna be end of the year soon and hope things pick up slowly and steady. I learned to lay back slowly and observe what i lost and pick up from there or i would say cherish people who surrounded me when i needed them the most and the important ones in my life. At some point you have to make decision and boundaries don't keep us out. Life can be messy if you want it or not. Life can be pleasant the way you want it to be depending on how to prioritize and take view from different aspects.

How about u?

Permission Not To Be Hardcore To Myself...

"Sometimes you have to give yourself the permission not to be hardcore for once. You don't have to be tough every moment of everyday. It's ok to let your guard down. In fact sometimes its the best thing you could do as long as you choose your moments wisely."

Everything Happen for a reason

Flows of life involves happiness,sadness,bitterness and sourness. Each stages comes with a chapter with different characters appearing to fill up the story from the beginning til the end.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you can eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."- Marilyn Monroe

Believing what you have seen and gone through that changes your mindset isn't a day or two that ought to make the whole thing go round. It is the flows along the chapters that keep your flowing mind full of imaginations and perceptions.

Learning how to let go ain't easy at all. It takes time and patience and believe in it. Being who you are taking up the prides and dignity to take the courage step forward ain't that easy at all. Letting go doesn't mean it's good or bad. It is about making a decision and bear on the consequences made.

Appreciation comes when you lost the things you truly in love with and cherish them when you lost it. Not everyone know the true meaning of appreciation and not by saying appreciation without action ain't that truthful at all. It's how you pick up the tabs without looking in details and get over it. That's it!

Triumph cards not to be flash all the time. It will become useless one day without realization.Trusting that "one day" will eventually comes with a series of patience and faith. Miracle happens in fairy tales not in reality. Fairy tales appeared in dreams and fantasy during our childhood making our hope become bright and imaginative.

Everything ought to be appear at the correct timing with the correct people and correct feeling.Sound easy?yes?no? Eventually, believing on yourself is the powerful weapon upon all above~

Grateful & Content

Jacy invited me to be helper for the "Big Day" today. She has been servicing for the elderly ministry at her church for the past 2 years. She is truly a devoted one. I am glad she gave me an opportunity to join them today. So basically it is wholly a new experience for me. We went to ubi estate to pick up the elderly. The elderly are mostly have illness and need to be in wheel chair all the time.

The ubi estate hdb flats are basically very small. They are staying at either 2-room flats or 1 room flat. And based on Jacy, some even filled up to 10 ppls in a flat.Can you imagine that?Each of them has their own stories. The sight of them reminds me of my grandparents.

Didn't really have the chance to take picture so just a few photos to share. Basically we have to hold them hand to hand and bring them up to the bus and head to the destination. As u know old folks hands and legs are no energy. They need wheel chair or 'tongkat' to hold them.

The church has get ready the bus and drive us to jurong west to attend the concert prepared by the church members. It is truly like a concert hosted by super stars. They have a beautiful voice and wonderful performance. Everyone is enjoying. We need to make sure everything is well-organized. We need to bring them to toilet when they need help throughout the performance and whatever help they needed.

Random shot of the performance stage.

View of the audience..It is so magnificent to gather 1100 old folks from all over the singapore to gather together to watch the performance.

The 2 hours of performance makes everyone face grinning over and back home happily. Each of the elderly was given a pack of dinner and back home by bus.

Seeing them and their living condition makes me feel that i am thankful for what i have now. The elder peoples are all very pity. There is an elder lady speaks hokkien with me telling me her story. Her marriage was arranged by her parents back in China and she was married to Singapore at the age of 13. She told me that she was shipped here and she got 6-7 children at the age of 21 years old. Can you imagine our grandparents generation was all about giving birth and arranged marriage and nothing else?As for our generation now, either late marriage or remain single or even divorce. Divorce cannot be found in our grandparents generation at all. One of her grandchildren is staying with her in her 2 room flats and the great grandchildren has to sleep on the floor and the furniture is not fully furnished. Her house grip door is broken and unable to lock. This is the life that she is staying now. She told me that her daughter is addict to gamble and always lost money and keep gambling. Sound very sad that a 91 years old auntie has to worry for her children. Her sons are either in china or other part of singapore where they seldom or maybe didn't visit her. She told me is her fate to have a poor life.

When i reached her place, we need to hold her hand and slowly bring her towards her wheel chair.Not even that as she has problems with urine. She even needs a diaper on it. We need to help her to put on before she can go out of the house. She is very happy to see us. The old lady told me that she can only come out from the house when we fetch her out. The only time she can see her friends when she is out. She is happy with it.

Being contented is so simple to her. Why we always want to make things complicated?I know i always do as i keep popping questions out to myself. But seeing them today hearing their stories and their simple request compared to my own issues are totally way so inferior. Being grateful and content to what we have and people around us is just awesome. Words unable to describe it but the feelings are there for you and me to feel it. Hope i can arrange my time to join jacy on the sun outing with the elderly.

However my own grandparents need to sought attention as well. Time really not enough especially weekend is so precious that i need to balance out the time for the things i want to do.

Good start for the month of aug with a nice service today teaching me to be grateful and contented. I know it all along just that along the way things like today is just to remind us or should i said remind myself there are people who are worse than me but still happy and grateful day by day. Just a simple thought or a simple action does change the whole thing.

Don't you agree?

What's Amazing?

'What's amazing isn't that you finished.What amazing is that you had the courage to start...'

This phrase inspired me when i go through phrases of journey. Everyone has their own phases of life with different experiences and decision to be made along the journey. You need courage to start when decision is made and you need courage to overcome your fear to move on.

For career instance, human being tend to be in comfortable zone and dare not walk out of the zone for changes. But somehow human being has the other side thinking to change which is quite conflict enough to decide whether to move on or to change. Characters and personal traits play an important role which leads to courage to decide where you wish to head to.

Plucking up your courage to do something unusual really takes time to adapt and blend into the situation. I think i handled it pretty well although there are hiccups here and there in the beginning. Though it is kinda discouraging but eventually the courage leads the way in the end. It's the process that counts. Although sometimes i find it quite long and tedious process. I 'm glad i have the courage to start with the decision i made and hoping it still move on and on and getting better and better...

A Good Sleep

Sleeping plays an important part in our life.We need to have good rest by end of the day to start off refresh the following day. As for me, i will need 10 hours above to consider sufficient rest.I know i sound like a pig but i don't really sleep well. I always have weird dreams and combination of different categories of people in my dream story.

I am physically and mentality tired but i cannot sleep. I will toss here and there on my bed and my mind just couldn't rest by itself.Perhaps too obsessed with the issue and keep thinking with endless solution towards it. By right, we should cast it aside and get a good sleep. Saying is always easier.

Having said that but i always fail getting all the troubles cast aside.That's where insomnia comes into the picture. Staying awake the whole night and looking people beside you sleeping soundly makes u feel so lonely and helpless. Insomnia can be big issues.

Based on wikipedia

There are three types of insomnia:-

1. Transient insomnia lasts for less than a week. It can be caused by another disorder, by changes in the sleep environment, by the timing of sleep, severedepression, or by stress. Its consequences - sleepiness and impaired psychomotor performance - are similar to those of sleep deprivation.^[9]
2. Acute insomnia is the inability to consistently sleep well for a period of less than a month.^[10]
3. Chronic insomnia lasts for longer than a month. It can be caused by another disorder, or it can be a primary disorder. Its effects can vary according to its causes. They might include muscular fatigue, hallucinations,more and/or mental fatigue. Some people that live with this disorder see things as if they are happening in slow motion, wherein moving objects seem to blend together. Can cause double vision.^[9]

How do u define good quality sleep and poor quality sleep? It is more on individual define words. Although you are sleeping but sub-consciously you are not. Actually referring to myself :P . You are actually half-awake and still alert to things happen surrounding you. It is like u are guarding against something and couldn't sleep in peace. Your inner peace and soul isn't there at all.Sound bad huh?

Depression also plays a part when it comes to poor quality sleep and insomnia. There are lots of factors that affect a good sleep. You can name it like excessive night time urine, a good bed and pillow helps you throughout the night as well. Stress in work also will lead to insomnia and eventually less productive in work as well. Your performance will be affected and you will start making mistake in your work. Calm the thoughts and minds will helps both works and your adjustment of thoughts to be balance off.Mm..can be right or wrong so depends on individual mindset. It is all about playing games with your own mind and heart.

I miss my good sleep days. How about yours?

Inspired Curves in Blogging

Inspired by missycheerio's post about the curves in blogging.I remember vividly i was browsing on bloggers's blog and drop by her page and was inspired by her masterpieces and been following since then.So i decided to have a post of my own to reflect back why i started blogging.

I started blogging 2 years ago because of someone whom i used to be very close with and wishes to share my daily routines so that we can be closer. It is more on having more communication and information unlike now we can even Watsapp, Viber (examples) to be connected different country. It was more on personal life when i started.I blogged about my work,family and friends whom i hang out with and sometimes even grumbling on problems that i am facing.

Back then, I knew nothing about blogs and nobody to guide on the blog setup and i just try and error and setup up with this simple blogging space to share my little stories of my rhythm of life. I was surprised when my previous company president found my blog accidentally and starts to read my blog as well. It was one fine day when he walked past my work seat and said " You blog?Your drawing is cute". I just stared at him and shocked. I was so shy and my colleagues knew about it as well. It was more personal blog where only few of my friends knew my little corner.

But as time goes by,many things had changed.People's feeling,thinking and mindset changed too. It was no longer the same as before. I began to think about what is the purpose for me to blog and little voice from my heart telling me that i blog because i want to. I blog because this is my rhythm of life. My phases of life. For the past one year i gone through downs rather than ups but it taught me a lot. I still remain blogging about my updates with friends gathering, my food post as i love eating but i started to share my random thoughts and thinking about certain issues that always running inside my mind. I think maybe as age gets older your mindset changed and i just want to jot it down here in my own space.

Sometimes words are hard to describe your actual feelings down inside your heart and songs can replaced it and i do share some of the nice songs that represent what am i thinking at that particular moments just right here to look back. Blogging has become so commercialized now and some of them are even full time blogger to earn their livings from them. It is no longer private unless you have password protection on it or maybe just not be announced to public that you are blogging. Thus blogging has pros and cons depending on how you perceive it eventually.

But to me, when i shared my thoughts here, my friends read it and feedback to me goods and bad stuffs which is good as well. It is more on how you want people to see you from the way you portrays your thoughts and appearances.It is like a package and so maybe some are true and some are not. It is visual to analyse and perceive but not to judge or assume it as seems you know everything about the person who blogs.

But blogging and blogs do influence me as part of my life now so i can be connected to the 'world' as it is my daily dose everyday. This is how my journey starts and i hope to see changes of me in my blogging curves sooner? Perhaps?or No?

Glance Back Time

Time flies and each day passes with the hope that yearned everyday.Everyday is a brand new day for each of us depending on how we perceive the day to be good or bad. Do you look in front of the mirror and smile to yourself and talk to yourself? I do sometimes to buck up my moody day.Afterall who never has moody days and emo-ing days.

We or maybe I always have this great imaginary world but sometimes i just want things to happen for real. The urge to make you or me fasinating owning something that i saw others have or rather things work it on my own way. We always meet new faces,peoples and new things everyday and these will trigger your interest of owning something that others have it. You see people having branded bags or luxurious life with all the nice things keep coming to them. The tendency of imaginary comes into the picture. You wish to be centre of attention like the rest you seen and hoping that people will be envious and jealous with how well you have been doing. Comparison comes into the picture.Things got out of hand sometimes.

They are so many things that we want and wished for but and eventually you will ask yourself "why can't i have it?" This keep inputing your mind daily,weeks or even longer and when you glance back time of the thoughts you ever pondered?have you really question yourself is that what you really want it to be?or just for the sake of being par with someone or to satisfy your particular moment of desire.Don't you? It's all about human pyschology and human tend to be greed and desire.The envious and desire of having what we don't have but others have trigger us to attempt to get the same par with one another.

Glancing back time if you really did it out of implusive, will you regret?or you just let it be and curb the temptations of just want to be par or satisfy your particular moment. Things changes eventually especially your mind. Mind is a wild forest that makes you lost. It hard to be control but doesn't mean cannot be control.It all depends on how your perceive it. Saying always easier.

However when a person wish for something and hope it will come true like we always heard from fairytales.We will make try means and ways to make it realize in reality. And when the wish has been realized, another wish will popped out thereafter and we will end up busying making all the wishes to be realize.Soon you feel what is there to pursue after all? 

When we are young, we will have the ambitious and energetic to pursue all the way for your wish or goals and hoping it will come very soon and the imaginary become real. 

But as we grow older, we wish that time could turn back as we rectify the mistakes and actions that we had made to make our life better than present. That's why there is saying "Time is gold"

Time is what we want most, but... what we use worst.  
~Willaim Penn~

The older you gets...

When you are a teenager, you wish you can grow older (adult) to be on your own legally and do the things at your own way. You have to be like a cindrella to be back home before 12am but not me. I still remember i need to be back home before 11pm. Our parents are very proctective to us especially to daugthers.Partying or clubbing is out of the question." Remember to come home before 11pm. Don't stay up too late" My parents will keep probing and I will feel annoyed with it.And you I are so dying to sneak out of the house and enjoy partying hanging out till wee night.

But for now,I had need to be committed to work and earn my own source of income and hardly go out after work. Secretly i feel that it will be wonderful if i can be alone quietly at home doing things i want to do or just relax doing nothing. Or once in a while have a simple dinner with friends for a chit chat & gathering. Not many maybe 2-3 persons will be just nice so they everyone has 2 ways communications. As older you gets, you tend to have different stages to go through and of course different thinkings and mindsets that ever input in your mind and makes you change. It ever changing that's why we always have this "people change" in the word of mouth. 

Although I am getting older, age is increasing every year, I got the thinking that it's our my advantage as along the way we gain our experiences from what i had done. People learn from mistake.So do i. But along the way, little voice comes into my mind asking myself am i taking the correct path.It always reflect on whether m i in the right track to reach the end destination. We can feel the time passage moving on swiftly if you ever notice it.

Fight your my own worth....

*pic credit to tumblr*

Feelings~

Mindy Gledhill - All About Your Heart [LYRICS]

No matter how hurt is the scar but the heart that matters most..

Appearance DO Matter

How many of the ladies nowadays walking down the streets without make up or colour their faces and nicely dress? None or you can almost said minority. We are living in this appearance realistic world where looks and beauty are the key for attention. People tend to look at first sight.Getting colourful colours to paint on your faces with more sugar look,mascara and eyeliners to give you a bigger eyes,manicure & pedicure your nails to make it colourful are an essentials for all the ladies to look good and attractive.

Beauty plays an important role to emotional and physical success. Truth or no? It has been fact that the beauty looks always has the advantage compared to unglam ones. "That's the way it is".This is always the words from the mouth of majority.

This is the truth in this society and 'beautiful ones' will always get noticed first and chances are higher. This is so true in worklife where people start to make comparison and in line human relationships. Guys will always turn their attention to pretty ladies with looks and figure. That's the way it is and and no use getting fed up or feeling bitter all the time and in other way learn to embrace it with grace (I know saying always easier).

"Looking goods equal feeling goods" Feeling goods comes in and boost your confidence level. This is what we are being told and experience all the time. People are living in such shallow world and we being undeniable question ourselves in our point of lives. Are we 'beautiful" enough? Some people ( include me ) find themselves thinking about it often but we tend to forget the pure confidence. Thus the insecurities slowly built in subconsciously in our thoughts.

Jessica Alba

Our parents and loved ones always say to us "Beauty lies on the eye on the beholder; you're our pretty daughter". No matter how people keep saying it but you can't just get over it and end up still start comparing with others. I need charming eyes like her; I need bigger boobs and have an outstanding figures,etc.We are all driven by appearance and first impressions that we all forgotten that the inner beauty is an intangible assets that no time and people can replace it.

It goes beyond words as inner beauty brings out the true self of your beauty and it is also the very basic that people tend to forgotten it's functions.But we all are preoccupied with our outer beauty but not our inner beauty.It is natural that comparison as humans tend to envious and want better for ourselves than anyone else.

I may not have the best look or apperance.I may not colour my face with sugar coated sweetness.I may not have the fantastic figures. But i have my own way of doing. 

So does appearance do matter?

It always does for shallow people who goes for first impression looks.

Pardon for my post if any offence but it's about the thoughts that i wish to share